Giving up Control for a little sprout <3

Hello Readers,

I have really been wracking my brain on where to go next with my blog.  I would love opinions from you all! If you would like to me delve into infertility and things I did to get myself pregnant (because trust me I did a lot!) or talk more about gluten or nutrition in general.  I am just having a hard time setting my focus on one area, I just have so much stuck in my brain and want to share it all at once and I think that would be the worlds longest blog; so any comments on the direction you would like me to go would be greatly appreciated! :-)

For now I thought I would blog about my pregnancy as well as some of the big decisions my husband and I have made as it comes to raising our little one.   As you know from my last blog we are expecting our first little one in July and are so amazingly happy that this was finally able to happen.  Pregnancy although completely wonderful has been a bit of a struggle for me at times! I spent 3 and 1/2 years controlling my body, everything that comes in and is put on it.  Tracking how different foods affected me, and so on.  I was so in control and loved that I was figuring out how my body runs.  Then I got pregnant and the dreams I had of eating amazing and glowing from the inside out quickly told me otherwise!  For the first time in 3 and 1/2 years I had no control, things were and still are growing including my behind ;-) The cravings I get sometimes are bizarre and so not like me! I have also had to learn how to stand differently, as well as walk and sleep!  If I can give one piece of advice; if you are going through infertility do your research on the pregnancy part too because I was shocked that my body had a mind of its own.  It might sound like  I am complaining  a bit and I don’t want it to sound like that …..really I think this process is the most amazing thing in the world!  Your body just takes over everything, even your brain!  A woman’s body is built for carrying life and it amazes me that it knows just what to do.  Having to give up the control was a struggle for me especially when it came to the tiredness but once I gave myself into it, I was able to appreciate all that my body is going through.  It is a machine now creating another human life! Really quite amazing.  So for now I have put away all my nutrition books and have dived into pregnancy books so that I understand what is actually happening with my body.

The most important reading for me has been what is normal to expect in pregnancy.  Every little pain I feel I get so nervous that something is wrong.   It has been something that I have struggled with during this pregnancy.  It took us so long to get this far that I feel like it is too good to be true sometimes!  I know I probably sound crazy but it has been hard to just let go.  Every time we go to the doctor and I hear that amazing sound of our babies heartbeat I feel so much better and know that my body is doing just fine and so is the baby.  Now that I am well into my 2nd trimester my eating has almost gotten back to normal as well.  During the 1st trimester it was all pasta all the time, I couldn’t stomach anything else! Then I started craving gluten! of all things! and I might have  (with doctors consent) indulged in a little gluten eating, however, that was a mistake and I paid for it! But now my body is steering me towards healthy choices again.  I am getting my iron (which was low in the beginning) strictly from food  eating lots of grass-fed local beef and spinach as well as eating some salmon and snacking on things like dried apricot. I am so lucky to have such an amazing husband, he has been wonderful dealing with the changes.  I use to love food shopping more than anything and now I come out with whatever I am craving! I am able to cook now without getting sick but still he makes me wonderful meals while I take it easy after working.   Everyday I love the changes my body is going through and adore my ever-growing bump! I am looking forward to gaining control of my body again after the birth but for now I am enjoying the ride, and really my body is just preparing me for motherhood because I am sure all mothers feel like things are little out of control sometimes;-)

I should tell you, WE ARE HAVING A BOY! We couldn’t be more thrilled! Either would have been perfect though ;-) We have made the decision to raise this little boy as natural as possible.  Starting with having most of what he wears or sleeps in being organic. Here are just a couple of articles explaining our decision further. http://www.ecolife.com/parenting/organic-baby-gear/natural-baby-clothing.html

http://mommiemayhem.com/organic-baby-clothes-what-are-the-benefits/

We got pregnant by ridding ourselves of all chemical products as well as eating all organic foods so it only makes sense to keep this going for our little sprout.  We have also decided to do cloth diapers for reasons I have explained in this  past post.  It is our hope that by bringing another life to this earth won’t mean hurting our environment by bringing in more waste.

Image from littlebuns.com

Plus I cannot even control myself when I see a cloth diaper, they are so cute! I already bought one and look at it often…haha now you might think I’m crazy! ;-)

Well that is all I have for now and please let me know which direction you would like to see this blog take next, I would love the input!

Peace, love and input please!

      Ashley

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4 thoughts on “Giving up Control for a little sprout <3

  1. I love it! Good for you! Losing control is a good thing from time to time! You will be an amazing mamma! I am so happy for you!

  2. I loved reading this update. I can see what you mean about worrying about something being too good to be true.

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